I have made two attempts at putting into words my feelings and situation in my life at this moment in this blog, and I trashed them both.
All I can say is that things from when I was aged six have emerged, are causing me serious problems, and it has become a life-death situation.
All of my resources I have redirected to surviving and overcoming the challenges that I now face. What I can say is that I can no longer carry on any struggles of playing hero for others and setting the world to rights. I am done with that. Those struggles include fighting Satan Hunters such as those in Hampstead and Becki Percy cases.
I am a different person from what I was in June 2018, and I feel and think different. The feelings that I have suffered have become the new normal, and it impacts my deeds and choices I am making. My life is having to evolve to my new reality, and playing hero is not part of that new reality.
I am proud to be associated with the Left Hand Path, and to that outlook known as Satanism. Regardless of my positive feelings for Satanic Temple, I have always said I was an independent Satanist, and it is to this path I shall continue to follow, however, it does not involve anyone else, it is something private and personal to me, so people in real life will not know I am a Satanist, since I will never tell them. I have been able to share my ideas and feelings on Satanism in this blog and other mediums because it has limited impact on my personal life, but I need to give my full focus to my personal real world life, so this internet activity must now come to an end.
I would have liked to say this post will be about a temporary break from blogging, but I think the reality is that this blog and my internet activity as a Satanist has come to an end, such is my situation that I now experience.
The ticking time bomb that is associated with my six-year-old former self, I kind of knew it would eventually detonate, but the destruction and ripples was more than I had expected. So, here we are, what can I say.
Anyway, it has been an honor to have worked with so many of you my readers over the years, and now it is time to say farewell. I wish you all the best in life.